My Wardrobe Malfunction

I put away my scale for an entire month, and then forgot about it. I started this blog last month on the 11th and I weighed 147 lbs. This morning I woke up and decided to reweigh myself to really buckle down and set some goals. Today I am 143.4 lbs. That's nearly a 4 pound weight loss in about 6 weeks (roughly rounding). I think I can do better. I need to do better.

Tomorrow I am going to a big job fair for a new tower of a local hospital. The hospital is basically doubling in size and is in dire need for staff. Here is where my wardrobe malfunction comes in...I can't seem to get any of my blouses to button and stay buttoned over my chest. I've come to realize that it's not an issue with my chest, but that my shoulders have somehow broadened. I'm sure it's my big arms. Uggghhhh...I'm just so disappointed that in May I bought quite a bit of new business casual clothes that all looked great on me, and now nothing fits. After trying on everything in my closet, I did find something to wear tomorrow, and if I think about it, I'll have the hubby snap a picture.

So with my wardrobe issue - here is my plan. When I hit 140 lbs - I'm going to get some caramel colored highlights for my hair. I love having brown hair, and it seems like every time I get highlights, I come back as a blonde. But I've been talking to my new hairdresser and he completely understands that I like being a brunette. When I hit the 135 mark - I'm going to splurge on a hour long deep tissue massage. When I hit 130 mark I'm going to go all out and really learn how to take care of my skin. When I return to 125 (my goal weight, remember I'm barely 5 ft 4in), I'm going to spend a certain amount of money on updating my wardrobe with some casual clothes. I'm good in the business casual, church, and scrubs section. But regular old talk the kids to the park/grocery shop/casual lunch out with friends type stuff, I need help in that department.

Which brings me to my current wardrobe. I noticed that I have a lot of Juniors clothes. I recently learned that ODD numbered clothing sizes are from the juniors department. Which is probably why not only are things a bit tight, but tight in all the wrong spots. Juniors don't have birthing hips. So on my birthday - January 23rd - I plan to try on every single article of clothing that I own and if it doesn't look fantastic and make me feel fantastic, it is out of here. Seriously, you should see some of the things in my possession right now. We just celebrated my youngest's 3 year old birthday and I still have saggy, baggy maternity underwear in my underwear drawer. I think they are hidden in the back near the sexy size 2 silky things. On a busy morning - which do you think I'm reaching for? So needless to say, my husband is 100% behind me (probably so he can start seeing more of the sexy silky numbers).

A quite note about my health. I know my symptoms add up to something being not right. I'm loosing a huge amount of hair, my weight isn't budging, and I'm exhausted. I called my doctor last week and left him a message that I think I needed a thyroid work-up. When he had me come into the office, I had a sweatshirt on in the 76 degree weather, and I still had goosebumps. I tell him that the cold in the grocery store (not even the freezer aisle, just the plain store) is so painful for me. So the doctor sent me in for quite a bit of bloodwork, and all of those results are pending. In the meantime, I'm still working harder at taking better care of myself.

Wish me luck at the job fair.